RUYA

Fragile

ongoing project

Ruya Qian

Fragile is my latest project that started from January 2019. It is also my first interactive body of work. I made a cloth mask sewed with soft mirrors, with me wearing it, I asked people to come and kiss me. When they were kissing me, they would see themselves as a reflection in the mirrors, meanwhile feel my body temperature and breath. I am always confused by the intimate relationships with other people – when you are in love, do you really fall for the other person? Or just need a projection for your love? Or, maybe you just enjoy the chemistry your brain produced. By doing this project, I intend to put these confusions on the table. Videos, digital images and installations are all mediums I’m using in this project. A Public performance can also be a future plan. Though with mask on, the body contact with strangers is quite a challenge for me. The whole process makes me think more and I want to escalate this project by working with people in different races and cultural backgrounds.

I stand here, I’m right here

You walk towards me

and closer
Kiss me

Touch my breath

Feel my temperature

I can see you
You can see yourself

You turn around

walk away


I’m still here

You stand there, you’re right there

I walk towards you
and closer
Kiss you

Sense your smell

Hear your heartbeat

I can see myself

Close my eyes

I turn around

walk away

You’re still there

video 1：https://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XNDEyNzQ3Mzk0OA==.html?spm=a2hzp.8244740.0.0

video 2： https://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XNDEyNzQ3NDQxMg==.html?spm=a2hzp.8244740.0.0）

What you collect is part of yourself

Ruya Qian

(2018— )

Solidified objects give me a secure feeling.

I collect a lot of stuff, to fulfil the blackhole of my desire. Dolls are one of them.

Too bad as a human being, there are always too many emotions, too many desires, too many dissatisfactions. It’s comforting sometimes after a long day when you came home, there are always the collections as a company. But physical objects cannot reach the the real mental needs, so here left an empty space.

To escape from the real world, I took a lot of doll photos, dress them up, choose the clothes, choose the shoes, choose the wigs, then taking photos, the process makes me feel peaceful, like getting into a fantasy world, but not perfect. When you have a lot of certain stuff to some level, these stuff became part of you, It’s hard to say who owns whom, since even after you are dead, these objects may still be there. Just change an owner.

All these thoughts pushed me making images.

Since several years ago, dolls and myself already appeared into my photos together, mainly in analog works. Recently I’m woking on this topic more on digital media including videos. My dolls sizes are all around 1 foot to 2 feet in height. I use photoshop and play with perspectives, in video I tried stop motion, this is the first part of the video, my plan is to have at least 3 parts total together.

first video link: https://vimeo.com/288122634

(inside China:https://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMzgxMDYyNzA0NA==.html?spm=a2hzp.8244740.0.0)

你收集的是一部份的自己

钱儒雅

（2018— ）

固体的物件给我一种安全感。

我收集很多东西，来填补欲望的黑洞。娃娃是其中的一项。

很遗憾，作为一个人，总是有太多的情绪，太多的欲望，太多的不满足。当经过漫长的一天回到家里总是可以得到自己收集的东西的陪伴，也算一种安慰。但是物理的东西很难真的满足精神需求，所以这里总是空了一块。

为了逃避真实的世界，我拍了很多娃娃的照片，打扮他们，挑选衣服，鞋子，假发然后拍照，这个过程让我觉得平静，像是进入一个幻想的小世界，但是并不完美。当你收集了很多很多同类的东西，到达一定数量的时候，这些东西变成了你的一部分。很难说谁拥有了谁，因为很多时候即使你死了，他们会仍然存在下去，换一个主人存在下去。

这个想法加在一起，让我脑海里有了画面，于是我就去创作。

几年前在我另一个胶片系列里，已经有出现了我和娃娃一起的画面，最近这个更清晰的关于娃娃的主题主要是数码影像的并且包含视频。我的娃娃的大小一般是1英尺到2英尺高。视频目前只做了第一部分，计划一共有四个部分。

第一个视频地址

外网: https://vimeo.com/288122634

(墙内:https://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMzgxMDYyNzA0NA==.html?spm=a2hzp.8244740.0.0)

Self Portrait Project

Fuji 3000b packfilm

Carnivorous Plant

As a bisexual, I am always curious about gender and sex. For using more neutral male models, I believe that inside each human body, there are two genders. The softest woman sometimes still remains a tough side as strong as a man, and even an alpha male more or less can be surprisingly found a very sensitive and tender spot inside him. Butterflies here are a symbol of attraction, this attraction might be mental might be physical, the body itself just like a carnivorous plant, spreading sweet scents, attracting those creatures, but the only different from normal flower is that, it can be fatal. 

There have been a lot of male photographers taking photos of female nudes, as a female photographer, I wanna try the opposite.

这组作品旨在表现人退守到孤独的空间里旁观世界的状态。

一个穿着红色高腰褥裙的亚洲女人穿梭在不同的景致、场所中，安然独处。人生来孤独, 不管两个人如何贴近, 灵魂深处总有一块需要保留空间和孤独的地方。站在那个地方放眼世界, 自身不再是世界的参与者, 而是一个旁观者和局外人。

I take self-portraits now and then

Just Polaroids

Solid Moments

I like to walking around the city and taking random photos while feeling stuck or stressed out.

It's relaxing.